Time and Location

The toasty feeling skin gets, after retreating from the rain paired with music that gives one a weird feeling, merge into me as I sit at the library. Dressed like my eight grade year complete with beanie, Vans, and black skinny jeans, I feel warm after being outside.  Three stacks of notebooks sit surrounding my computer, a double branch light fixture lives on the table, the perfect amount of organization and clutter. While all these things pair to make the perfect study environment, I can’t focus on my work. The need for coffee and time alone fill me with anxious thoughts, I need to get away. I want to paint. I wish I could play piano, I would drink tea will I did. A list of to dos fill my head, as I look to the day to follow as well as the weekend ahead.

Peers from my past life fill my head as I sit in this space, allowing my thoughts to wander, because I know I can’t get them out of my head until they are out of my suppressed conscience. This can’t keep happening. Chills overcome my body, and I’m suddenly cold again.

Fall is an interesting time in life. It is suppose to symbolize renewal, as the leaves change and die, along with the rain washing away the old season to bring in a new one. Often times the decisions we make in the fall don’t wash away in the winter, and it’s easy to forget that. This is especially true in Texas, when the seasons are all screwy, and no one knows today from tomorrow if it will be cold or hot. They say location is everything. They are right. Is my location where I’m suppose to be? I thought I had solved this issue recently, and that it wouldn’t be an issue again this quickly, but fears don’t die easily.

 

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Explanations Are Helpful

Here we go.

*Deep Breath*

I haven’t blogged since midway through last year, and so much has changed since. We shall see how well I can get my thoughts out, because I’m horrible with grammar, and verbage. I’m also not sure how often I will be able to get posts out, because this is college, and lets be real people, I’m procrastinating as I create this post.

 

In this chapter of my life, I’m a student at Criswell College, pursuing a BA in Politics Philosophy and Economics. I love politics and have been drawn to arguing, and equality my whole life, so I’m extremely excited. If you know me, that shouldn’t come to you as a shock. If you know the background of Criswell College you are probably confused, because my theology doesn’t align with theirs, but if you reread that last sentence it should all make sense. 

…That sounds bad.. So let me explain: I’m very open minded, “But Macy, you just said you like to argue, doesn’t that contradict itself?” It does, but you have to understand, I’m one HUGE contradiction. (More on that later) I’m at Criswell to broaden my perspective, and better understand myself. I’m learning how to form arguments in very eloquent ways, without stepping on toes, or hurt feelings. More importantly, I’m learning how to look at things from the perspective of others, before I take offense to their perspective. It’s quite a simple concept really, put yourself in others’ shoes, before you open you mouth.

 

So I think that’s all I have to say as of right now, and I can probably study more effectively now that I have all of that our. Here’s a quick playlist for you, until my next post:

Boyce Avenue – We Can’t Stop

Miley Cyrus – Who Owns My Heart

Boyce Avenue – Teenage Dream

Miley Cyrus – Wrecking Ball

Katy Perry – Roar

Miley Cyrus – Party In the USA

Destiny’s Child – Survivor

TLC – No Scrubs

Ylvis – What Does the Fox Say?

 

Till next time, ponder me this, “How is it with your soul?” Feel free to answer in the comments.

Much love,

Macy